I've become so depress... I don't think I'll be able to handle it no more.
This been a wake up call to my depression, this 3 weeks without work, what I’ve called vacations have been so horrible, so unbelievable horrible, I just don’t think I can handle it anymore, this woman has gotten worse and worse and had make every single person around her miserable, I just don’t think I can handle it… My mother has gone horribly crazy, complaining, throwing everybody out of the house… I just want…to disappear… I just want go away forever, I want her to be so alone she’ll understand how wrong she has gone, calling me a slut, whore, a piece of shit.
Shit why I was born ? Why is depression a thing ? Why do I have to suffer it….So many question.
America is some fucked up dystopian shit honestly like how are y’all even surviving? Paying for healthcare? $60,000 on tuition? POC getting shot in Wal-Marts? White men shooting up elementary schools? That’s terrifying I’m worried about all of you
America doesn’t seem that terribly horrible when you live here day to day and you’ve known nothing else but when somebody says something like this it fucks you up really good.
“Every morning, I wake up and forget just for a second that it happened. But once my eyes open, it buries me like a landslide of sharp, sad rocks. Once my eyes open, I’m heavy, like there’s too much gravity on my heart.”—Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer